Forgive me.

All my dreams are lost, I'm wasting away..

And I thought You could be..

Such a long time since someone like yourself has crossed my path. You're everything, literally everything i would ever ask for. Not too little yet not perfection. And my heart just got torn apart hearing those words. What oh what am I doing wrong?

No need for a topic..

And after so long, I thought I could actually find someone like you, I guess i was wrong, again.

I cut my hair..

Universal Studios Singapore Job Interview..

It's been long since family has been asking me to get a job and i don't wanna get one because the most common one which always has availability is FnB which is crap literally. I have worked in 2 FnB outlets before and it's really cheap labour, even though 6 an hour seems like a reasonable product, the amount of work you do is just not up to par with it.

On wednesday's classifieds, i saw a big ad on walk in recruitment for the IR in sentosa and i was like hey, i think this might actually be fun? Went to the place at Redhill today only to find thousands of other hopefuls already in que and i was quite demoralised knowing what the odds are. So apparently i saw everyone filling in forms so i thought ok maybe they'll just shortlist some of us and call us back. But after filling up the forms, which took 45 mins, we had to go to a holding room. There we waited aimlessly for about an hour. So it finally was my turn for the interview and honestly i was freaking out because i really want the job as it's something i dont mind doing and it being so near to my place even better still when i get my bike license. During the interview i tried my best to answer spontaneously and apparently i got in! =) went to another room for human resource which took another approximately 45 mins. Finally everything was over..

My training starts on the 18th for 3 days and the park opens early Jan. Yay =)

A Night With Jon..

So Jon's parents are overseas
For 24 god damn days!
He still has about 18 days alone i think
And it's freakin awesome!
So tmr we start school same time
So i thought why not keep the poor boy company
And stay overnight with him..

He actually invited the usuals for dinner
Cooked an awesome meal! Love him
All the ladies out there, he is the man!
Then played cards while blasting music on his amp
Tried out some gay clubbing moves LOL
Then wanted to play l4d2 but sadly
one shop was closed
the other did not have the game
so ended up talking bout life under block
AS USUAL haha getting emo and serious

Tmr we start at 9 and this bitch is always late
so im gonna make him get to sch punctual for once
He is gonna experience what i do in the mornings
hahaha so im gonna shake him up if he snoozes
and he is so gonna cry man! Bloody fun.

A Girl From The Past..

20 months ago
I first laid eyes on you
The sweetest ever in my life
One I could actually be with
Without much complication
Who would love me so much
And would compromise with me..

We started off small
Little chats that sparked
Online till wee hours
That spark became a flame
We got closer each day..

I remember the time when we went for orientation camp
I remember the time when we were strangers
I remember the time when we stared at everyone blankly
I remember the time when we introduced ourselves
I remember the time when we bonded through games
I remember the time when i said my first sentence to you
I remember the time when i first held your hand in a game
I remember the time when camp ended and we separated
I remember the time when i got your number
I remember the time when i added you on Msn
I remember the time when we chatted everyday
I remember the time when we texted everyday
I remember the time when we took webcam pics in IT sch
I remember the time when I went to the bbq cos you went
I remember the time when we sat by the beach playing guitar
I remember the time when you eyes sparkled looking into mine
I remember the time when we chilled out after school
I remember the time when we webcam till 5am
I remember the time when we wrote upside down on papers on webcam
I remember the time when you said you'll always be there for me
I remember the time when you said you loved me
I remember the time when I was head over heels for you

And i also
I remember the time when it all ended
I remember the time when I did not ask you the question
I remember the time when we ignored each other
I remember the time when you got a boyfriend
I remember the time when when I felt like an asshole
I remember the time when I felt guilty
I remember the time when I blew my chance when it was there
I remember the time when I was begging god for one more chance

But now
Thinking back of the past
And what a dickhead i was
I really hope you forgive me
I really hope you give me that chance
I did not ask you the question cos i was immature
I did not want to commit, I dont know why
You were the sweetest
Most adorable girl
That ever crossed my path
I am sincerely really really sorry
And I want to say
Zahra,
I
Really
Really
With
All
My
Heart
Love
You
And
Promise
That
I
Will
Never
Ever
Be
Such
An
Asshole
Again