New Years Eve..

Bros for life.


So 2009 was a really wierdly awesome year
I can still remember that 31st Dec of 08'
Time flies i suppose, however,
Through the good and the bad we gotta move on..

In 2009, friends birthdays were awesome,
some got their licenses, some have cars,
some have girls.. Even i had a really
enjoyable birthday! Thanks to my ex..

It was the first time i went clubbing
when i was officially legal on the night itself!
On 09/09/09 I got together with Wing
Who i really loved and cared for a lot
I guess things just was not going well
and it ended on the 25/10/09..
Ahhh I wont say i miss it, but it kinda
gets me thinking bout everything..

Today is the 31st, last day of the year.
Planning to go overnight skating at the
all awesome Xtreme skatepark at ECP
and yes its freaking awesome!

Some resolutions i got in mind for 2010:
- Bike license 28th Jan
- Get my car license
- Get into desired course of RP
- Get a girlfriend
- Quit puffing (I pray hard)
- Become a better person
- Remain healthy always
- WORLD PEACE

Livin on a prayer..

Why are we seen as children of the underworld who are controlled with chains and buckles on our legs. We are given food and drink when needed but dragged around like mules in the hot burning sun. Cuts and bruises are neglected, hair is unkempt and smelling like ass. When the end draws near, the bright white light shines in our faces, everything goes blank, we think its a new dawn only to realise we're up there looking down at the ones who made us. We start to reflect on everything that has came and gone, images flashing through our minds rapidly from the first second the the very last, everything becomes chaotic, panic-stricken we run for our lives, the immense torture of the flames, The heat of the almighty sun, the power of the immortal sea, the inhumanity of the wind. Silence arises, we stare at each other blankly, babies crying, children screaming, our souls part and we leave the universe, all the way up to eternal darkness.



(*I dont know what i just wrote but it connected in my mind*)

100th Post..

This is the 100th post on my blog! cool..

Days have been very busy lately..

-18-20th had training for job
15-16 hour days including travel time..
All the way the other end from where i stay..
Met a lot of new friends..
Lack of sleep..
Gotta' know this super sweet and cute girl ^^

Been to and fro Sentosa 2 days in a row with USS mates
Uncle from aussie is here so spend some time there
Played guitar, had a really awesome time!
2nd day had a BBQ, yum yum..

Not really on good terms with my dad..
On the verge of exploding..
Sometimes he thinks i dont dare to but trust me i will..
He blackmails me bout my bike, so what?
He wants to argue with me over smallest things..
I come back 20 mins late he shouts at me..
Im not a kid anymore, all your tactics dont work.
Compromise and maybe it can be solved.
Now apparently im 'grounded'( HA HA HA)
And he thinks i wont dare walk out, what a joke!
As i said im not a kid, i got my own house keys..

On a brighter note,
Someone really special to me makes me all fluttery..
I really hope things can work out..
(*blush*)

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Heal me, I'm heartsick..

Take these broken wings
And learn to fly again, learn to live free
When we hear the voices sing
The book of Love will open up and let us in

I'm really sure..

All i want for Christmas is you..

The past, The present..

Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
But how can we say forever

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

Forgive me.

All my dreams are lost, I'm wasting away..

And I thought You could be..

Such a long time since someone like yourself has crossed my path. You're everything, literally everything i would ever ask for. Not too little yet not perfection. And my heart just got torn apart hearing those words. What oh what am I doing wrong?

No need for a topic..

And after so long, I thought I could actually find someone like you, I guess i was wrong, again.

I cut my hair..

Universal Studios Singapore Job Interview..

It's been long since family has been asking me to get a job and i don't wanna get one because the most common one which always has availability is FnB which is crap literally. I have worked in 2 FnB outlets before and it's really cheap labour, even though 6 an hour seems like a reasonable product, the amount of work you do is just not up to par with it.

On wednesday's classifieds, i saw a big ad on walk in recruitment for the IR in sentosa and i was like hey, i think this might actually be fun? Went to the place at Redhill today only to find thousands of other hopefuls already in que and i was quite demoralised knowing what the odds are. So apparently i saw everyone filling in forms so i thought ok maybe they'll just shortlist some of us and call us back. But after filling up the forms, which took 45 mins, we had to go to a holding room. There we waited aimlessly for about an hour. So it finally was my turn for the interview and honestly i was freaking out because i really want the job as it's something i dont mind doing and it being so near to my place even better still when i get my bike license. During the interview i tried my best to answer spontaneously and apparently i got in! =) went to another room for human resource which took another approximately 45 mins. Finally everything was over..

My training starts on the 18th for 3 days and the park opens early Jan. Yay =)

A Night With Jon..

So Jon's parents are overseas
For 24 god damn days!
He still has about 18 days alone i think
And it's freakin awesome!
So tmr we start school same time
So i thought why not keep the poor boy company
And stay overnight with him..

He actually invited the usuals for dinner
Cooked an awesome meal! Love him
All the ladies out there, he is the man!
Then played cards while blasting music on his amp
Tried out some gay clubbing moves LOL
Then wanted to play l4d2 but sadly
one shop was closed
the other did not have the game
so ended up talking bout life under block
AS USUAL haha getting emo and serious

Tmr we start at 9 and this bitch is always late
so im gonna make him get to sch punctual for once
He is gonna experience what i do in the mornings
hahaha so im gonna shake him up if he snoozes
and he is so gonna cry man! Bloody fun.

A Girl From The Past..

20 months ago
I first laid eyes on you
The sweetest ever in my life
One I could actually be with
Without much complication
Who would love me so much
And would compromise with me..

We started off small
Little chats that sparked
Online till wee hours
That spark became a flame
We got closer each day..

I remember the time when we went for orientation camp
I remember the time when we were strangers
I remember the time when we stared at everyone blankly
I remember the time when we introduced ourselves
I remember the time when we bonded through games
I remember the time when i said my first sentence to you
I remember the time when i first held your hand in a game
I remember the time when camp ended and we separated
I remember the time when i got your number
I remember the time when i added you on Msn
I remember the time when we chatted everyday
I remember the time when we texted everyday
I remember the time when we took webcam pics in IT sch
I remember the time when I went to the bbq cos you went
I remember the time when we sat by the beach playing guitar
I remember the time when you eyes sparkled looking into mine
I remember the time when we chilled out after school
I remember the time when we webcam till 5am
I remember the time when we wrote upside down on papers on webcam
I remember the time when you said you'll always be there for me
I remember the time when you said you loved me
I remember the time when I was head over heels for you

And i also
I remember the time when it all ended
I remember the time when I did not ask you the question
I remember the time when we ignored each other
I remember the time when you got a boyfriend
I remember the time when when I felt like an asshole
I remember the time when I felt guilty
I remember the time when I blew my chance when it was there
I remember the time when I was begging god for one more chance

But now
Thinking back of the past
And what a dickhead i was
I really hope you forgive me
I really hope you give me that chance
I did not ask you the question cos i was immature
I did not want to commit, I dont know why
You were the sweetest
Most adorable girl
That ever crossed my path
I am sincerely really really sorry
And I want to say
Zahra,
I
Really
Really
With
All
My
Heart
Love
You
And
Promise
That
I
Will
Never
Ever
Be
Such
An
Asshole
Again

Life..

Last DRT yesterday afternoon..
Booked TP on 28/01/2010..
2 months..
60 days..
1440 hours..
86400 minutes..
5184000 seconds..
IN OTHER WORDS
BLOODY LONG!
*Honestly i might go mad just thinking bout it*

Went to Sengkang yesterday evening..
Cycled 1 hour there..
Met up with school mates..
Jeeva, Siva, Karl, Huzairi..
Sat under some block..
Played cards..
Ate Long John's..
Rode around with karl awhile..
Attemping to clear 'tabletop' road hump..
Karl fell, tore his jeans, scratches on arm..
I made it thankfully..
My luck did not last long..
At CDC which is in Ubi..
Pedal came off my crank..
Had to push my bike back home..
1 hour ++..
Super shagged and dead..
Drank Red Bull felt a lot better..

Term test is next week..
7th is first paper..
Although i'm changing course..
I still gotta go..
Keep a clean record..
I dont know a shit about studies..
I dont pay attention in class..
I am so screwed..
January apply for RP..
Interview with the principal..
Once accepted, withdraw from TP..
People say im stupid for wasting 2 years..
I say fuck off it's my life..
I rather not suffer anymore..
I rather do what i like to do..
Besides we all know the chicks in RP are 'kilat!'..
So don't get all jealous..
Fucking virgins..

How to survive life?

I hear so many people complaining how tough school life is and how stressed they are, but when you think of it, why are some people who are in the same standard of education a lot more relaxed than you? They may not get the same results as you, but they lead a very much more enjoyable life. Here are some of my methods..... =)


- Choose play over homework and find a last min way to do it.

- Act like assignments/projects don't even exist until the deadline.

- Live everyday like it's a holiday.

- You only live once, why stress when u can enjoy.

- Not happy with something, it's ok go smoke.

- Parents ask you how was exams, just smile and go "not bad ah".

- Parents ask you if you can pass, just smile and say "should be".

- Exam tmr, lock yourself inside your room and do nonsense.

- Constantly motivate yourself saying you can do it.

- If you really dont like school, just skip all lectures.

- And for tutorials/labs, show your face and play comp.

- Got an iphone? Always twitter, it helps.

- DO NOT play iphone games, your batt will die.

- During your free time, go do tabletops on your specialized P1.

- Go to the bubble tea shop after sch and pamper yourself.

- Groupwork meetings? nahh grandfather in hospital/pick sis up

- Weekends, wake up and watch Discovery turbo(Channel 72)

- Sleep at 3-4am and get up at 2pm like a bum.

- When it rains, celebrate unless u got a bike.

- When it's fire burning sun, shout profanities about it constantly.

- When you leave the house on weekdays, tell yourself "fuck school".

- When you get to school with 5 mins to spare. Go smoke, buy a drink and go pee.


Hahhahhahaha this list can go on...

Hardcore Biking Starts..

Problem after problem...

Zack Story:
So few weeks ago he called me up saying he had a job offer and wanted me to do it with him but when i asked him what it was about, he could not give me a definite answer. So he said he'll call me tonight when im home from sch to talk about it. There was never a call. Following day he said he set a meeting for me to discuss about it, i could not make it due to the last-minute info. He was vulgar to me. Exact message; "You think you own the world. Ktm. Aprilia. Wing. The most beautiful girl? You been looking down on me. Amelia. What you told her. I've had it. Go fuck yourself" Firstly there is no link to anything. Secondly he just sounds jealous that i got a life and he does not. Thirdly i look down on him? When he had no one in sec sch, i was there. When he had to whine about family problems, i was there. When he had to whine about life, i was there. When he had to whine about NS, i was there. Week after week, i endured everything trying to understand and being a nice friend. There he was taking me for granted. All he could ever do was sit at home, on his stupid laptop, with his stupid girl. He wanted his protein powder and hoodie back, so i arranged 11.30pm. I said before hand i'll be running late, be there at 11.45-11.50. He said come up for smoke. I said no i have to go somewhere else, I have to meet someone else. He got into some bitch-fit and i said if he is not down i'll leave it by the bench. So bla bla he messaging me saying im a pussy, not worth seeing my face etc. So after some time he just kept quiet. He even said he cant even remember how this started! WHAT A DOUCHEBAG!

Dad Story:
These days my dad has been having some sort of PMS, like he gets angry over the most nonsensical things like me lying down looking lazy. Like wtf sia my problem right my life. Now he wanna complain about my hair ask me cut it 4 inches cos he say it looks kuku. So of course i said no i wont and literally asking him to fuck off from my life. But no he goes on and on. So ok to make him shut up, i'll cut 2 inches off. He saying stuff like family comes first, u dont seem to make that a priority. Cmon la weekends is my time, for my freedom, my enjoyment. Don't fucking tell me i cannot go out at night cos i was out the whole afternoon, thats bullshit. It gets so annoying! Dad treats me like a kid thinking im not responsible, thinking i dont have my priorities sorted out. I've had it.

School Story:
Wilson siew asked to meet me on friday at 12pm SHARP, making it sound so serious and urgent. So i was there on time waiting. No sign of him. I waited till 12.25pm and even asked his fellow colleagues where he was, they said they do not know he is not in the office. So at 2.30pm he called me saying he was standing outside the class the whole time waiting for me(Guilty but trying to act innocent voice), FUCK sia what a fucking liar! I was with 2 friends, i even thriple-checked the classroom number. Think funny ah make me wait down there? The world revolves around you? And this IS NOT THE FIRST TIME. On my birthday 17th of August we supposed to come back for an interview.. With my nice clothes i took a cab to sch, wanting to remain looking good as i was going out to celebrate after that. About half the class were outside the room waiting for him to come for half an hour, NO ONE. Call him, NO ANSWER. In the end all went home. Like what kind of teacher is this? SO BLOODY IRRESPONSIBLE! I wasted my 12 bucks on cab. I rushed for nothing. Then now tomorrow he wants to meet me at 10.45am for what supposed to be done on friday. What a joke sia.

Its funny how things have turned out.

School

At the beginning of poly

we enter the class for orientation

not knowing anyone all alone

we meet all sorts of people

from different walks of life

and in general we act nice and humble

so as not to make that moment awkward

soon after some time, true colours come out

i admit i aint the nicest or most polite guy

but i do not hide anything

im direct, to the point, open-minded

and some others just wanna bitch bout you

saying your jokes go too far sometimes

like hello we are men, not pussies

we know it's nothing more than a laugh

and there u are using it as a reason

when actually you're just jealous

cos u aint never gonna be like me

so stop acting so tough and shit

cos deep down you know you at the losing end

your supposed bros left you cos of a girl

you ditched them like an asshole

after all you went through with them

and u wanna say i took them from you?

nahh dawg i dont own anyone

i dont owe them anything vice-versa

in life you either live with the problem

or make a solution for it

but you just want neither

i know we may have been 'close'

but hell no man, not anymore

seeing the guy you are

taking my supposedly 'good' girl friend

who apparently ignores me now

yeah thanks, i hope you're happy

well you know what, i dont care actually

i realised her true colours as well

you're poly life is screwed

you're friends now are dickheads

all the best fuckhead

you're gonna need it.

Licenses..

BIKE

All pracs passed.
RTT passed.
Defensive theory - 2 more lessons
TP - Yet to book, Most prob JAN

CAR

BTT 25th this month.

Funny Road Signs..

It's getting harder by the day..

Day after day
Night after Night
Hour after hour
Minute after minute

ITS PISSING ME OFF!

SOME PEOPLE SHOULD JUST FUCKING DIE!

IT'S LIKE A STORY TOLD IN 100 DIFF VERSIONS

STOP FUCKING LYING TO YOURSELF!

FACE REALITY AND LOOK IN THE MIRROR!

YOU AIN'T EVERYTHING!

YOU THINK YOU'RE UP THERE, BUT THE FACT IS,

YOU ARE JUST A LOSER WANTING ATTENTION!

AND IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!

lol im getting so fucking angry man.
When im there, im another asshole
When im gone, im the world. Fkin bullshit.

I've reached the end boys.

Yamaha YBR 125(Bike used in CDC)

So 2 and a half months have passed in CDC(Comfort Driving Centre)
and i have finally reached my practical lesson 8! The last one..

Prac 1 - Basics of riding, gear changing, braking (1 time)
Prac 2 - Blindspot, signal (1 time)
Prac 3 - Fig-8, crank course, slope (1 time)
Prac 4 - Narrow plank, pylon slalom, E-brake (1 time)
Circuit revision
Prac 5 - 2b Circuit course(Test) (2 times)
Prac 6 - Night riding on road (4 times)
Prac 7 - U-Turn on road, 2b road route (1 time)
Circuit revision
Prac 8 - 2b circuit course, 2b road route(Test) (To be taken)

Traffic police test - (Yet to be booked after everything)

I'm gonna get there someday..

Im gonna make it there someway or another.
It's my passion, i'm gonna live it.

How i feel about you.

Let bygones by bygones..
But here's what i gotta say.

You played my heart.
You played my feelings.
You did not wanna commit.
You stringed me along.
You left me hanging.
You think this is a game.
You want things to go your way.
You want to be the attention.
You want to be noticed.
You want to be loved.
You don't want to love.
You make it others fault.
You never admit your faults.
You live in your own world.
You cannot face reality.
You keep secrets from me.
You never make time for me.
You never make me priority.
You drink too much.
You party too much.
You have too many guy friends.
You cannot compromise.
You cannot talk things out.

And most importantly,
You never showed me what love ever meant.

It's not only me but the people around me.

Friends are aplenty one stays close.
But sometimes its up to you.
To put some magic in the wound.
A friend can only do so much.
Go ahead add that little touch.
The rest is up to you to see.
If you cry or end up on a tree.
I made mistakes once or twice.
I tried to teach you.
but now you pay the price.
I know its tough to win the fight
but this is how you play
the game of life.

I guess i made the right decision..

Since the break up,
I've been having a better life..
I've been more cheerful..
As nothing negative has been on my mind..
I passed my prac 6 with no mistakes.
(I failed it 4 times before)
And coming from me who knows riding
it's shameful to do it 4 times when
others do it once and considering the
fact that i have had 2 years experience
i should not even be doing it more than twice.
I guess sometimes u just get too caught up
in things that it really affects you..
1st failure - Was not focused
2nd failure - Beat flickering green arrow
3rd failure - Beat red light
4th failure - Beat red light
5th pass - No mistakes
I guess this really showed me
how much love screwed me up.
I'm happy i made the right decision
and all the best to myself for
prac 7 on friday =)

Trying to cope..

Some girls think it's easy for guys
to just 'break up' with their gf's..
Girls have the mentality that guys
have no emotions and are heartless
or don't give them a chance BUT
what they cannot see is that
it's something that has to be done
for the better of the 2 parties or
that chances have been given but
just neglected by the girl at the
moment it was given. Girls always
think they're right, guys are wrong
and it's always our fault not theirs.
When things dont go their way,
they blame the whole world. When
things don't go our way for us guys,
oh it's fine cheer up life goes on. I mean
i've had it with this whole concept.
Is there any girl out there that can actually
say "Yes i was wrong" or "It's my fault"
and actually mean it sincerely?

The thing bout my ex gf is,
i felt she was hiding a lot from me..
She was a very secretive girl.
She never wanted to talk things out.
When i ask her whats wrong, it was always nothing..
And so many stories i hear about her from others.
Its like how i see her its not what i hear about her.
And it's very hard for me as a bf to just 'tahan'
because her lifestyle really revolves around guys
and the point she gets drunk and all
i really dont think for a fact that any guy in this world
can take their gf going clubbing and drunk
almost every day of her life with guys around
be it friends or not, im a guy, i know guys.
And bcos of this, every night i lay in bed
wondering if there is another guy in her life
or if some other guy is using her
or if she is entertaining some other guy
and it's hard, the trust is not there.
And if anything happens, the reason she will give
is "oh i was drunk sorry la" but it's bullshit
bcos in the first place, u shd not even be drinking
so much to the point you get drunk. If u do so,
all i can say is u deserve it, its your fault.
But why bring in the points like friends bday or
friend force me? U still need self-discipline.
And if friends force u, i won't even call them friends.
Drinking is to enjoy for leisure and relax
but not to flop on the floor and vomit.
This is a really big factor why i chose to end it.
I need a girl who can be independant.
I need a girl who knows what right and wrong.
I need a girl who knows her limits.
If a girl does all this to a guy,
i guess it merely shows no love or concern
because they think only for themselves.
Seriously sometimes u just to make them aware
of how u feel and what they have done
before they come running back to you
but i guess this time i aint gonna be that sucker
who says ok i forgive you, no i wont do that.
She's gotta sort out her mess before i even consider.

Till we meet again..

I'll go right, you go left. It's only the right thing to do, we gotta get
ourselves back on track and move on with out separate ways.

I ended it.

I ended things off with Wing today.
I just feel it's going nowhere.
I cried viewing past messages.
Which i kept since day 1 every single one.
But here are the reasons..

- She aint gf material
- 2 completely diff people
- Completely diff lifestyles
- I know stuff bout her.
- I feel i'm never a priority
- I know there are other guys
- She does not seem to love me
- Friends more important than me
- She was with me just cos im nice
- There was never any affection
(The list can go on but ill stop here)

She's probably gonna drama tomorrow
like how she already did on twitter
"Got the worst message at the wrong time, prayed
my cab would crash but it didn't"
But i guess its for my own good.
Instead of suffering and enduring all the bullshit.

Another beginning,..

So school started aready
Semester 2.1 in temasek poly..
Things are pretty much different
from what they used to be..

- Started 2.1 with a girlfriend
- Different classes for almost everything
- Teachers are equally gay
- Almost to my bike license
-etc

And today wannabe Mohammad Ali
stared at me god knows how many times!
Man i'll break his gay ass face one day
"You may look like me, but u aint never gonna be like me"
"Wannabe gangster ass!"
(Quoted from Drumline)
So what u in boxing now big fuck?
Oh wait, fat people can be in boxing?
Not happy come, anytime i'll fuck u up
I'll make you smell the ICU bitch!
And cut your hair u POSER!

Butterfly Kisses - Westlife

There's two things I know for sure:
She was sent here from heaven and she's
daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes and
I thank god for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her
hair; "Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."
In all that I've done wrong I know I must
have done something right to deserve a hug
every morning and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet 16 today
She's looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world.

But I remember
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; sticking
little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, Daddy, But if you
don't mind I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong I must have done
something right to deserve her love every morning
and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by.
Precious butterfly.
Spread your wings and fly.

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I'm thinking and I said "I'm not
sure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
She leaned over...gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk my down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!"

Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must have
done something right.
To deserve your love every morning and butterfly
kisses-I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is.

I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses.

Aprilla RS-125

KTM giving me so many problems!!
Leaked 2 times already despite $100 servicing!
Dad is damn pissed off and wants to sell it off
So i guess my Pastrana dreams are gone..
But my Valentino Rossi dreams are still here!
Meet my hope-to-be-future-bike
APRILIA RS-125

When parents were gone..

So mum went to germany
Dad went to work
Both not in singapore
= PARTY! =)

I had 5 days 4 nights clear
no nagging
no pestering
no paranoia
no RULES!

So first 3 nights i stayed home
Then 4th night went over to Vann's
which is at like Chinese Gardens
Hell far but god damn worth it!
Reached there about 12 midnight
then watch 2 movies before sleeping
Ruiyi, Danny and me slept over
So next day supposedly is go home day
but NOOOOOOO have to do some more
went to Danny's house slack there till 6
then went Ngee Ann poly to crash sis's camp
acted as 'Ghosts' for nightwalk bla bla
then went back around 1..
Chit-chat then watched saw then all fell asleep
then got up at 1 plus, smoke, order macs
then at like 3pm i finally left to make
my long ass journey home from west to east.
I would call it a 3 day 2 night camp
instead of a sleepover, lol

After taking a shower at night i looked in the mirror
and went like "omg i got fatter"
So decided to take a night jog cum workout
around my neighbourhood, felt good man
then i had the moment to rejoin taekwondo
cos then at least i have something to do
and at least some form of exercise..
We'll not too sure bout it yet..

'ME' Day..

So i made today ME DAY!
I dedicated this day to me
and what i like to do..
And like Ris Low said,
"It's all about me, YESSS, Me.."
hahahah
Woke up at 12.30pm
Ate lovely sambal prawns with rice
then computer the usual stuff..
Call Jeeva and Waran up
Play nice music on my stereo
Then rented Exorcist from Video Ezy
Watched and ate cup noodles
Then went down to play some soccer
something i have not done in MONTHS!
Then had a few games of dota..

It's been long since i had 'me' time
life in school is so hectic then the rest
of the time is used on friends/girls
it felt great! And tmr is my prac 6 retake
I hope today has cleared my mind
and i wish myself the best for tomorrow!

I had a dream..

So i had a dream just now before i got up.
This rich chinese guy came up to me
and said,
"Boy i know u need money, go buy 4D,
0910, take care"
He ruffled my hair and went off.

Then i woke up.
Should i believe in this?
Where did 0910 even come from?
It's not even a number in my life.
Oh well..

I'm trying to cope..

As the days go by
we're drifting further apart
i really dont know whats wrong
or whats her problem
if you dont love me, say it
and not drag this shit on
stop wasting my time
it's making me go insane
it's affecting my life
i got a bike prac on wednesday
i cant afford to daydream
like last week cos we argued
and fail it again
my bike dreams are calling me
i aint gonna screw it up.

It's affecting me ALOT!

I dont know what to do anymore.
Things just are kinda 'stalled'?
I love her so much.
I dont feel she loves me.
We'll i know she loves me.
But not in the normal way.
Probably just cos i care.
or cos im nice.
There is no physical attraction.
I know im not her type for looks.
I just dont know what im doing.
The dots have been connected.
It's all pretty much clear to me now.
I'm just there cos im there.

well whatever man,

On that very day when i asked you the question, that was the day i was expecting a whole new chapter in my life. And i wont say you gave the chance to me, but i gave you a chance for once to actually get a nice guy who will actually be there, entertain the emotions, and most importantly be loyal to you. I guess you just don't appreciate me, no one ever did, you're all the same. Every girl i have liked/loved took me for granted, thinking i will be there clinging on no matter what cos im nice and all that bullshit. I guess that chance was a mistake, probably one of the biggest mistakes i ever made. Despite so many people telling me i deserve better and not to go for someone like you, i still decided to go for it because i believe in giving people a chance. You said you changed, you said you aint like what you were in the past, but how can i believe that? Everything im seeing is exactly what people warned me to watch out for. When you said yes to the question, i expected devotion, i expected sacrifice, compromising, but no, i did not get nothing. You were just that same old girl, out every night, clubbing, drinking, socialising. I know how you told me so many times, "oh its my lifestyle, it's hard to change" but any human being who really loves the other party, would alter their life for the better of both people. I wont even consider our 27 days a relationship, it was a joke. All the reasons you gave me, bout my sis and germaine affecting you and my mum and your past and all that. Nothing should affect a relationship is you love someone. And i know, i KNOW you dont love me for the person i am on the outside. I know i'm not the kind of guy you would ever go for, from my dressing to my attitude to my personality. I am a bum, i am a slacker but so what? love should not be based on what i am or what i wanna be or what i want for a career in future. I know we are worlds apart, we are completely opposites. U hate bikes to the core but it happens to be my love, so what can be done bout that? Im not asking you to sit behind, im not asking you to pay for it, im not asking you to cry if i get into an accident. I do it on my own account and i take responsibility for it. When we talked for about an hour yesterday i asked you if u really loved me, it took you so long just to answer me "yes..... Youre nice what". Is that the kind of reply a bf would wanna hear? The yes sounded like a forced yes cos im on the phone. And when i asked so you only love me because im nice? and you said "yah youre nice what". If only i could cry when i heard that, but no it's not worth. You do not make me a priority at all. Your social life and friends mean loads more i know, it's ok. I dont even know them. I dont even know if you do anything with them. You can't even sacrifice one night to come to my area and maybe sit by the beach, no u cant. Reason? "It's far and i dont have a straight bus home. Don't you cab everywhere? If its clubbing or drinking sure midnight charge no problem. I came back from Bali have not seen u more than a week, until today actually i have not seen u since i came back, why? youre sleeping because of all the shit u do or you rather go out with friends. 2 days in a row you said it was for me, you said we'll go out, but no call, no message only on the second day night u texted me saying why i never msg u whole day? is it my fucking duty to start every single message every single day? that shows you dont care. You say im sensitive, i think too much, but look at what youre doing to me, you dont even act gf material when youre with me. I'm looking for a commitment relationship, an honest relationship, and this is totally not it. And when i go, i will go for good. So stop living in lalaland thinking life is a bed of roses and every night is party night. Once day reality will hit you smack in the face and you'd be so unprepared. It's a real world out there and everything does not revolve around how you feel and what makes you happy. So pull yourself together, i'm done.

BALI!

It's the 28th morning
gloomy cloudy morning
rain is most probably expected..
Slept 2 hours last night after
stupidly knocking myself hyper
with a can of red bull at 2am, lol
People going to Bali,
Me
Marissa
Jens
Sofie
Dad
Mum

Me sis and dad are taking SIA
the other 3 are taking AirAsia
This is because me and sis
still got free tickets with SIA
that expires in december so
we are just going to use it haha..

Baby is in Bangkok now
Sounds like shes having a good time
and she bought us couple rings! omg
haha i miss her soooooo much

So 5 days in Bali i shall be
wonder how am i going to survive
without my tooshes, or maybe
i'll secretly get them somehow.
Hahahah bye peopleeeeeee!

Songs meant for her.

Sorry seems to be the hardest word - Blue
Truly Madly Deeply - Savage Garden
I dont wanna miss a thing - Aerosmith
Always - Bon Jovi
Bed of roses - Bon Jovi
Till we aint strangers anymore - Bon Jovi
I'll be there for you - Bon Jovi
In these arms - Bon Jovi
Thank you for loving me - Bon Jovi
Every rose has its thorn - Poison
Lay your body down on me - Poison
I lay my love on you - Westlife
If i let you go - Westlife
Mandy - Westlife
Swear it again - Westlife
I swear - All 4 One
Shape of my heart -Backstreet Boys
To be with you - Mr Big
Rosanna - Toto
Man in the mirror - Michael Jackson
The way u make me feel - Michael Jackson
Wonderful tonight - Eric Clapton
Listen to your heart - DHT
Paint my love - MLTR
25 minutes - MLTR
Every breath u take - The Police
My heart will go on - Celine Dion
Lets talk about love - Celine Dion
Because u loved me - Celine Dion
To love somebody - Bee Gees
Words - Bee Gees
You're the one that i want - Grease
My boo - Alicia Keys ft. Usher

AND LOADS LOADS MORE
I CAN GO ON FOREVER

These are for my Q809 homeboys!

These are for the good days guys
gonna miss you all when im gone
"And when im gone just carry on
dont go and rejoice everytime you
hear the sound of my voice" =)

My name is Siva
My dick so small
Hip-hop's my life
Sadly some sari lady's my wife

My name is Khairul
My brain so big
Programming's my life
Thank god guitar saves my life

My name is Jeeva
My skills so good
Tennis's my life
I'll be trashing Federer soon

My name is Waran
My style so cool
Joke's are my life
Gonna make a fool of myself soon

Baby i miss you..

Day and night you're on my mind
you fill my dreams all the time
it's you i think off in the morning light
wishing you were right there by my side
I know that we may be so far apart
but baby you know you're in my heart
I wish that we could meet every night
It's hard i know but we'll make it right?
I'll be with you till the very end
happy or sad i'm sure we'd have had
good moments and memories shared
I love you baby i know i can't rhyme
but i hope you feel the same way too.. <3

I love this song!

Love asked me to listen to this song
with the message,
"People may be against us eventually
but we'll prove them wrong"<3

With me by Sum 41

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone,
with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find
(what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go,
these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know,
'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Where'd u go, i miss u so..

Spend more time with me, Love?

P.s I'm down with flu =(

Motocross, my dream..

I was watching a video just now..

The guy said this..
"I was a late bloomer,
the first time i actually turned
the throttle on a motorcycle
was when i was 19, period
first time i touched a bike
was when i was 19"

And now he is riding professional.
As in a CAREER a JOB
And that is my fucking dream.

Here i am ok just turned 18..
But i know how to ride a bike,
Been riding since 17?
furthermore i ride a dirt bike!
Man if he can make it so can i..

He also said..
"I worked my ass for for a bike
i worked my ass off for a truck
to carry my bike up and down to
the local tracks.. After awhile,
hooked up with some guys who had
ramps in their backyard"

All this only happens in U.S.
What does singapore have?!
No tracks, No ramps,
MAINLY, NO SUPPORT
Screw this country man
im moving out A.S.A.P

Can it last?.. hmmm

The one question i ask myself
Every morning when i wake up is..

"Does she love me?"

I know it may be wierd and all.
But i feel it's only right
that she shows more love for me..
She hardly says those sweet stuff
us guys would wanna hear..
And with her work and friends,
it's hard for us to have time..
I really would like u know to
change the concept of meetings..
I would like a more loving place
a more chilled environment..
Not town, with its many people,
and i mean i want a place where
we can actually express ourselves.

You know what,
maybe i just,
think too much.

My sweet little thing..

09/09/09
A Date to remember..

It started off with a normal
Wednesday Morning, the sun was out,
the sky was a nice shade of blue..
What else could we ask for?
The plan was to go to Z.O.U.K
at night with,
Wing
Danny
Germaine
Vanessa
and some others for a birthday..
We met at city hall at 7pm SUPPOSEDLY
but ended up around 7.20pm luh, u know..
So dinner was Macs at Raffles City uh..
Then when buying food, Wing asked me
"THE QUESTION" and i was like omg omg
omg omg omg omg wasn't i supposed to ask?
So i had a talk with Danny about you know
me wanting to ask her and stuff.. So when
i was on the phone they all member member
all go ask her to tell me to ask.. So she
said "I take my words back, i want you to ask"
(With that smirk and shy face, OMG SO CUTE)
haha so i was like ok i wanted to aniways..
But my plan was quite ruined cos before going
i went to a flower shop to get a rose, but NOOO
It had to be closed right?! But i still had the
intention to ask before going in zouk.. So before
going in they bought Chivas and germs had half
bottle vodka, finished it over some games like
truth or dare, 5-10 and a few others..
So we playing one game i dont know what its called,
you gotta start a sentence from the last word of the
previous sentence, go on and on until someone screws it.
E.G "Shaakir is so SEXY"
"SEXY is what i like"
So i planned with vanessa cos she was before me to say
something that ended with 'do' so i can say what i wanted
cos wing was after me, and when that moment came, i was like
"Do you wanna be my girlfriend?" and the game just became
silent in an instant, She started blushing so much, so red!
but she did not give an answer, the game just went on..
Haha after everything, she gave a 'speech' to everyone
and what they meant to her and all and she said that
the answer to my question is a yes. Omg i was the happiest
asshole for the 2 secs i tell you! So went into zouk,
had a good time, danced like mad, drenched in sweat.
Ahhh i love her so much, shes the world to me =)
Shes my sweet little thing, shes my pride and joy =)
Shes my sweet little baby, Im her little lover boy =)

SUNDAY!

So ytd went to vanessa's house
for movie marathon cum sleepover
watched 3 shows:
-Some thai ghost show
(Dont know the title)
-Haunting of connecticuit
(I think thats how it's spelt LOL)
-Take the lead

So there were 7 of us?
Vanessa of course
Marcus
Marissa
Germaine
Danny
Wing
Me

Omg it was so fun sia!
Like i see my sis's friends all
so united, life so happening..
They're like a family sia..

Got up 10.45am only to remember
i had my bike theory at 12.45pm!
So rushed to chinese gardens MRT
YES, CHINESE GARDENS!
Then i did not feel so good
I had the gag feeling and bad tummy ache
Mum picked me up from bedok and went CDC

Theory Lesson:
So luckily i made it on time
Went into the class and omg
i tell u the amount of MATS
and BENGS in that room...
It's like although you're
there for the same reason,
they look at you like
you're not invited here..
Damn those wierd assholes.
THE BEST PART WAS THE TEACHER
Omg he was a joke sia!
Firstly he spoke so softly,
half the people dozed off..
He made like SUPER LAME jokes
and laughed to himself every 5 secs
like hyperventilating kinda thing
although i burst out in giggles a few times
i felt bad for him, like it's his job
he is trying his best to make a living
and to teach people road safety..

What lively 2 days i had..

Sleepless Nights

The past few days have been killer sia..
It's like i want to sleep i cant.
Well mainly cos waiting for her call.
Making sure she's safe and sound.
Air-con died on me middle of the night.
Woke up in sweat to switch it on again.
Could not sleep after that though.
Knowing there's a bike prac u gotta do.
Have been using comp till wee hours.
Doing nothing but the usual.
Killing my eyes and health so badly.
I can feel it!

Fave Music!

MY TOP 10 FAVOURITE ARTISTS!

- Guns N Roses

- AC/DC

- Aerosmith

- Bon Jovi

- Michael Jackson

- Stevie Ray Vaughan

- Lynard Skynard

- Daddy Yankee

- Michael Learns To Rock

- SteelHeart

*Not in any particular order*

Me love u long long time..

Things with me and wing are going
SUPERB =) I'm really glad it is..

I used to think you're just another
girl who 'fucks off' when they meet
someone else, and though there were
setbacks, i guess the holes are covered
up for now.. I really would want things
to work out between us, i've never felt
such love for someone in a long time..
I know you have many guy friends,
I know definitely there are guys who like u,
I don't know if you're seeing any of them,
But this chance/opportunity im willing
to give to you, to trust you with your words..
I know my sister and some others are against
'US' for some reason or another, maybe from
their point of view of what you have done before,
im wasting my time/feelings but i feel otherwise..
I believe people change, i believe in second chances..
I hope it's not the wrong thing to do, but no matter
what, right now my heart's for you baby =)

We'll take things day by day as it comes..
Final destination was awesome!
Your hand was so smooth, haha
See u soon my dearest!

WOOOAAAHHHH WE'RE HALF WAY THERE!

26th..
Prac 3..
Wearing number 6..
Bike number 27..
-Slope
-Figure8
-Crank Course
[PASSED!]

28th..
Prac 4..
Wearing number 6..
Bike number 47..
-Narrow plank
-Pylon Slalom
-Emergency Brake
[PASSED!]

Prac 5 revision on sunday!
WOOHOO!!
HALF WAY THERE MAN!

Bike License!

So my birthday was August 17th
I went to apply on that day itself
and got my Prac 1 on the 20th..
7th/8th September is theory lessons

20th..
Was wearing a number 4
Bike number 8(Gay ass bike)
-Biting Point
-Gear changing up and down
-Engine Braking
-Stopping before line
-Moving off from line
[PASSED!]

22nd..
Prac 2..
Was wearing a number 6
Bike number 43(Not bad bike)
-Gear Changing up and down
-Check Blindspot
-Indicator
-Lane change
-Yellow box junction
-Right/Left turn
[PASSED!]

Prac 3 is on Wednesday =)

2009 KTM 200 EXC

Sold off the bike in the previous post due
to loads of problems encountered after buying
dad decided to buy first hand for me
the 2009 ktm 200 exc
which is like my dream bike!
Really made my day..

I love DADDY!

DADDY GOT ME MY KTM!!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DAD!
Collecting it on Wednesday..
OMG BEST MOMENT IN LIFE

CORNROWS.

So i got my cornrows done..
Hahahahaha
"sean paul"

MCT Bustedness

Today during MCT we has to pass up
our Reflection Journal..
And under the "what can be improved in the group?"
Some fucking group mate of mine went
to write "One of my members always walks around
class during lesson, goes to other groups bla bla bla"
And clearly it's directed to ME! I mean can u even
call yourself a GROUP? when you can say things
about your members like that? So what if i walk
around class? So what if im bored? I did nothing
to you, i did not bother you. Even when im going
to talk to friends in other groups, u tell me u all
discussing things?! Fuck la u all talking in chinese,
u all on laptop dont know doing what, i sit down there
also like fucking idiot right. Kanina.
GROUP work means working as a team. U are just fucking
thinking about yourself, your marks, your reputation.
Face reality, this is the real world. Things NEVER would
go your way, we gotta give and take, compromise.
When the MCT thing just started all the backup paperwork,
i was the one fucking contributing so much, giving so many
ideas, but sorry if im not serious enough for you, sorry
if i am not up to your standard. This is how i am, no one is
perfect, we have our flaws and studies is one of them for me.
And even if you want to show that u are doing things and want
to indicate to teacher, just go talk to him, i really dont care.
But u dont have to write it down and specify ONE OF MY MEMBERS
i mean cmon, what kind of trust is this?
Damn man, fuckers.

Can my days get any worse?

These days have been one of the hardest
in my life.. School,Friends,Family,Girls LIFE...

-School: There are people who you are close with
and the ones who are just hi-bye.. Some you think
are good friends, but turn out to be fuckheads. Some
are assholes on the outside, but really nice inside..
Some just has issues, like really mentally retarded
problems, down right insane. Some don't know when to
just grow up and act their age. You know what i mean.

-Friends: Although you know they're there for you
they dont show it, like what used to be an everlasting
thing is now just like normal buddies. That bond has
just disappeared. All like got their own life already.
New friends come, old ones are forgotten.

-Family: Been very rough these days in the house.
Dad is flipping at the slightest things like shoes being
5 degrees off straight, or me coming home 3 mins late.
I mean cmon im 18 dont fucking treat me like im 10.
I've really had enough of taking all the crap. One day
i'll just blow. I told them before, they're lucky i did
not turn out to be like how so many people are,
who dont give a shit bout their parents, who dont
know what is respect, who treat the house like a hotel,
who is out getting drunk and wasting their life. And yet
the slightest things i ask for cannot be given.

-Girls: She's being a bitch. I'm on the verge of breaking
down but it comes to the point where i find it useless?
I dont see the point of wasting my emotions, One day
can make me feel like i mean something, the next day its
like im a stranger. She says she is depressed, i call many
times yet no answer. Ones of these days she'll call me as if
nothing has happened, give the usual, "oh i was busy" thing.
Man what the fuck am i? Some rebound/dustbin kinda thing
Think about other's feelings before absorbing in your dreamland.

New plan!

OK so i got a new plan..
Instead of that downhill bike,
(We all know its too expensive..)

Im going to mod my current bike,

- 32 Fox Float 140mm travel
- White Atomlab Pimplite Rims
- White Atomlab Pimp Pedals
- White Atomlab Pimp Bar
- Front & Rear Red Hope Pro 2 Hubs
- Black/Red Atomlab Brake Levers

DownHill!

Omg im so stressed!
I need money! Lots of it!
I wanna buy my COVE SHOCKER DH BIKE
"Simply Orgasmic"

Mr Mime!

So was trying the complete outfit
for "dress to deSTRESS"
for Thursday at Ngee Ann Poly

And seriously it looks
KICKASS man!

<<<<<<<<<
This is Karl's pose..












<<<<<<<<<<<
And this is mine!

Thursday is going to be KICKASS!

The JABBAWOCKEEZ are going to rock
Ngee Ann poly on Thursday at 6pm
WOOHOO! hahahaha

Mime: Shaakir
Breakdance: Karl
Hip-Hop: Siva
Locker: Waran
Popper: Jeeva
Clubber: Dan

We gonna bring it like no one's seen before!
We got the moves that'll stop you're groove,
We got the style that's so worthwhile,
We got the looks that'll.....
Nahh we just got the looks. =)

I really like you..

First time i saw you,
I saw that spark in your eyes..
That shimmer i won't forget..
You're like an angel
sent from god to me..

Day and night you're on my mind
When we meet up, it's like heaven
though it don't last long
i treasure every second of it..

When you call me
a frown changes to a smile
because without you
my life is worthless..

All i ask for is
for you to really show me you care
i really like you baby
and i hope things could work out..

Now or never.

I make such a hard effort..
She treats me like anyone else..

I try to contact..
She hardy replies..

I call her..
She's at zouk..
The sound in her voice..
I know shes wasted..

I wanna go out with her..
She brings her friends..
All i ask for is some quality time..
Never got it..

I wanna hug her hi and goodbye..
Her guy friends get it, i don't..

BUT at the end of the day,
She said those things to me..
Those sweet sweet things..
But what can i believe?
Who can i trust?
Will she be loyal?

All i know is that im not in a good mood
all her 'friends' she meets at those places
are starting to get to me..
What has she done with them?
How close are they?
FUCK MAN FUCK

Time will tell..

So girl what you wanna see?
wanna see me get down on my knees?
wanna hear me beg u baby please?
wanna see me crying for mercy?

Oohhh girl wish i knew you're world..
I think im losing my head
over you girl!

Time will tell what i'll get out of this.
If my efforts were worthwhile..
If really i was appreciated..
If i really meant smth to her..
As for now, i'll keep going..
With all my heart, i swear.

East Coast Homies..

So gotta know this girl and her best friend.
Atiya and Carrie, 2 of the most awesome
girls i've ever met i swear! They are fucking
cool sia! Atiya is this whole hip-hop kinda
style girl, Carrie is Atiya's bestie with like
the awesomest most power hair u can ever
think of sia. It's like after 2 years i found friends
who actually click well! And they stay within a
5 mins radius from me LOL!


Thanks to Ro..
Asking me to come the other day.
Gotta know them. =)
Love u Lathi.

NDP 09' Rehearsal

Wing got tickets to the 09' NDP Rehearsal
So we went yesterday, 4th July..
The sun was hell..
The amount of people was crazy..
All in all it was a good experience..









Thanks dearest..

Share my world baby..

You are like an angel
sent to me from god
like a dream come true.
when i first laid eyes on you
fireworks sparked my inside
all i ever wanted from that day
was to see you again..
I was given that chance
and look where we are now
i wanna take you higher girl
higher than ever before
to fairytale land like in your dreams
where you'll be my princess
and we'll live happily ever after..
I'll take you to places you've never been
places you've never seen
Share my world with me baby
and i'll share yours too..

Dedicated song..

Wing dedicated this song to me =)
I'd lie by Taylor Swift

I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes

He'll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs and

I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on?
Doesn't he know I've had him memorized for so long?

He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine

I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He stands there then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breathe for you

He'd never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is, "My god, he's beautiful"
So I put on my make up and pray for a miracle

Yes, I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

Thanks alot wing =)

I'd give my life for you..

It's amazing how you can stumble upon somebody
and dream of talking to that person one day
and the day came right at your feet
and before you knew it, youre friends..

Then soon after, you realise something
that you can click so well with him/her
and like there are butterflies in your tummy..
But its hard for you to even 'flirt' cos you're
scared you'll lose him/her.. =)

"It's late in the evening...
she's wondering what clothes to wear..
she put on her make-up..
and brushes her long blonde hair..
and then she asks me..
do i look alright?..
and i say yes..
you look wonderful tonight.."

Personal holiday!..

So im skipping school tomorrow
to go to MELACA!
hahhahah so fun get to skip OOP
coming back sunday!

Oh and waran, Happy birthday!(in advance)
cos i wont see u, and im not spending 80c on the sms

I am missing her la. so much. even though its only
been hours?

And that hot engine girls name is JASMINE! OMG OMG
*faints*

Suay!

So for the H1N1 crisis,
Why isn't singpore closing schools?!
Last time SARS all close what.
Better take precautionary measure b4 its too late right?
It's like even though got temperature scanning,
the only put it at the entrance where about only half
the school enters from there, what about other places?
Even those who went overseas were warned not to come for 7 days
THEY STILL DO! Teachers dont care if students got the sticker.
I heard latest news year 1's of RP completely off from sch till 1st July.
But the year 2 and 3 are not! What nonsense is this?
NP and SP and NYP all got a week more. But TP? NOOO
Man if they dont do smth, it's going to get worse.

Yet another beginning..

2 weeks hols just ended..
Supposedly waking up in 5 and a half hours time.
It's going to be like 3 hrs by the time i go to bed.
9 weeks of hell to go before next hols. SAD!

Nadine's birthday today!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)
That magic number 18..

I hate school so bad sia.
Grrrrrr.

Things are going to change..

Many people say that,
EGO will be a downfall to many..

We all have ego, just a matter
of how much we show it. And this
is one thing i cannot tolerate bout
those with aplenty of it.

They think they're all that.
They think people look up to them.
They think they're popular.

Truth is, You're acting like a fucker!
Instead of making people look bad,
you're making yourself look like a jackass.

Normally those with high ego levels
are very 2 faced. Just to climb up the
'cool ladder' they backstab friends,
talk behind peoples back, shit like that.
Fucking pussies. Ball-less fucks.

It's affecting my life, in a GOOD way
knowing what a bitch some can be.
And i know no matter what many say,
things are going to change. It's like god
returning to his people. I know it.
Well, that's life? NAH FUCK THAT!

Holidays..

Holidays are coming to an end!
FUCK MAN FUCK!
2 weeks go by so quickly..
Lets recap what i did in the hols..

- Trail night cycling
- Overnight at cathay
- Support Rohit SGIdol
- Chalet 3 days 2 nights
- Smoke a hell lot
- Stay at home a hell lot!(Surprisingly)
- Did up my motorbike
- Watched movies
- Shopping with mum for groceries
- Bonding with dad
- Computer games many many hours
- Cycled quite a lot with VEERASINGAM VENKATESHWARAN
- AND.. i dont know, be a bum?

Next holidays is in August
LONG LONG TIME..
and oh shit, Nadine's birthday is on monday!

Melaca Trip!

26th-28th
Fri-Sun
MELACA TRIP!

Skipping sch on 26th
Muahahaha
Smoking heaven!

Peace =)

Love at first sight..

Event: Freshmen Orientation Workshop(Before year 1 even started)
Venue: School
Group: Venos

Thats where i met my first love in TP

We didn't talk much..
A few smiles here and there..
Got close..
My heart was hers..
Her heart was mine..
Right in front of me, she was there..
I fucked it all up.

In tears i write this post..
To tell you my story..
Of probably the sweetest girl..
To ever walk into my life..
She gave me a chance..
I let it slip past me..
Something in me was just,
wrong.
confused.
uncertain.

She meant the world to me.
And im pretty sure, i did too to her..
I sacrificed my sleep for her..
Late night calls..
Webcam till dawn..
Even if i had schl the next day!

If you're reading this girl..
Which is like maybe 0.1 percent chance..
I wanna let you know..
You're my everything..
The air i breathe..
The ciggarette i smoke..
Even the pillow i lie on..
Thinking back on the past..
I was an asshole, a jerk.
I played your feelings..
I played your heart..
And i apologise sincerely..

If there is any way on earth..
That i could ever get that chance again..
Baby i'll lift you off your feet..
I'll dedicate my heart and soul to you..
I'll show you a whole new side..
Of the person i really am inside..

"I remember when i used to be with you
you thought me things i never knew
i was so stupid to let you go
and now im feeling so alone.."

Wherever you go, whatever you do, i will be right here waiting for you.. <3